Wednesday, May 28, 2008
have you ever read something that is related to you in one way or another? there's this blog existing somewhere in the world. and there's this person writing this blog. and everytime i read the blog, tears come to me. my heart suddenly beats with unberable slowness and an ache which never fails to stay plastered on that broken heart of mine. and why broken right? why broken when it seems you have the perfect guy with you. but what if that passion isn't there? what if you mixed up the feelings of everything you ever knew. and the perfect guy no matter how perfect isn't perfect for you. what if imperfectness was perfect for me? truthfully and honestly, i never stop, never ever stop thinking bout that question. most nights if im not too tired, that question comes to me, and that slow ache comes back once more, just like how it feels when i read that blog. that existing blog somewhere in the world. i never stressed or had a best friend. usually it was close friends, the familiar people you hang out with once in awhile and still talk about the rubbish, the character that doesn't change, it's all so familiar and safe. so my question is whats the feeling of having a best friend? how do you know that person is your best friend? mtyweb abyy. sometimes things are easier left unsaid. sometimes everything seems happy, you think the person is happy; then you see the person cry. for no reason. out of nowhere. and you see the person cry. then you get to choose to either pick up the person's broken pieces or let it lie. and me, i so want to pick them up and heal them. but sometimes it'd do more harm than good. i wish someone knew. ps. love at first sight is true. really. it can really happen. and when it does, you'll know it. the most magical moment that you will probably never forget in your entire life. pps. love at first sight, if its not meant to be, it will never be. and it can be so painful too. but you will carry that moment with you for life. hope is what gets you going, moving on.steph, i miss you. now. badly. i wish i had someone else around now. i wish it. ben, reply me online lehs. its not easy coming online these few days esp if i got work. the hours kill.abyy, i don't have to say anything, it's in the eyes. in the mind. in the heart. in the soul.
- everything's just temporary;
9:58 AM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
hello! melo is now in usa. updates can be found on erm. www.meloandnut.blogspot.com
anyone wanna help change the blogskin pls feel free to email me!
- everything's just temporary;
8:35 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
so after the exams, here's what i've been up to:monday: met ying liang for supper at starbucks siglap. but the place was super crowded, the whole place was filled. so we headed down to coffee club for drinks. (: i know at this point of time, there should be some pictures to fill up the details, but apparently i'm experiencing some really irritating problems. so, we had a good catching up session.
waitress: are you guys ready to place your order?him: yup, i'm ready but i think the lady needs another 5 mintues.
(waitress walks away)
me: so what are you having?
him: i don't know. hahahahs. it was damn funny la. thanks for the really pretty book! and the super creative model. grins. i'm going to be missing you!
tuesday: i cleaned my room so now it looks so much better. (:
then headed down to PS to meet benjamin. my mackers breakfast buddy! walked around, talked crap and then went to watch movie -- doomsday. it's a stupid show, something like i am lengend. hahhas gory but ben and i had some good times laughing at the funny parts. which were SUPER dumb. hahhahs. Rhona Mitra's super hot in the show. her eye colour's gorgeous and so is her hairstyle in the movie. omg. i kept ranting on to ben bout how hot she was la. hahahhs. oh ya, though she fights and almost dies and all, her hair, though in a mess is still so perfect. and so are her perfectly mascaraed and curled eyelashes. tsktsk.
thanks ben! for the many food inc the pads and the condom and plaster food imitation. grins.!
after which went with daddy to st annes. weijie was working so couldn't meet him. hmms.
wednesday: did my brows at browhaus in the morning then met up with toh to do our international license. and had lunch at singtel. bittersweet singtel nostalgia. ahhahas. after which we headed to his place to do erm. NOTHING AT ALL. oh he finally cleared his room too. and we decided to cook pasta for his family for dinner. which was yumm!
then we headed out to zouk. i tell you, we reached zouk arnd 945 and the queue to phuture was crazy. i think it's ridiculous that zouk has ladies ticket restriction on ladies night. i was so pissed off. after we queued for so long. rubbish. so the two tohs and i cabbed down to mos. which seemed to be super boring at first but after midnight it was a blast. andrea and jamies came down to join us too! we all had flamin lambo and so on. my first on flamin lambo. it's super nice! (((((((((: it really hit after that gulp of martel. took crazy number of photos. but i can't upload them cause there's a prob rmb? but we all had alot of fun. the best of the mambo hits were played and smoove had good rnb too. (: DJ TANG IS DROP DEAD HUNKY OMG. hahhahas. i've a huge crush on him. my legs were killing me after the night was through. andrea and jamies left early as she had school the next day. and the 2 tohs and i headed to azhars for supper. hottie 1 and hottie 2 were damn high. ahahhahas. so we were being damn loud and sprouting pounds of rubbish. lolls. once we stepped into the house i was fast aslp. toh went to bathe can. siao.
thurs: again we did nothing. hahahs. we woke up super duper late and was just in time to catch the jackie chan and jet li show at westmall. after which headed down to the plaza market cafe at the swisshotel to eat dinner buffet. thanks uncle george for the voucher! ahhahs. ate till we couldn't eat anymore. esp since we hadn't eaten anything the entire day. so now i'm back home with all these news.ps. i'm super tired. i just want to be with yeanlih right now. because of what happened just now. (:
- everything's just temporary;
11:20 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
this is for the screwed up piece of fucking BITCH:if you fucking do not know how fucking old you are, do a reality check. FUCKING DO IT. don't go messing around with ppl way too young for you. and if you tell me that you have a boyfriend, you really fucking don't look like when you hit the clubs and fuck around. so i really pity him cause he really doesn't know what kinda bitch you really are. and if you wanna drink yourself damn fucking high till you're so damned fucking drunk, don't go around messing with the wrong people. but too damned bad for you cause that's exactly what you did bitch. so fucking don't ever let me see you. and fucking don't ever let me see you with him. now this is for the screwed up piece of fucking WIMP:
if you want to fucking fuck around to anyone go ahead. just don't fucking mess around with me. fucking telling me one thing and doing another. maybe you shouldn't have even told me bout the whole damned thing to start off with. no, fucking didn't help. so listen up and listen good. thanks for your oh so damned indirect challenge. guess what, im taking you on. wait and see. in the meantime, why don't you go fuck someone on sunday too. cos you're so damned over. you say she was the one fucking up, well the pictures sure don't show it. fucking stop lying to me. i hate liars. you fucking know it. now you can shove your ass up somewhere else. and hey fuck you right back. you messed up big time and with the wrong bitch. fucking fuckers all around the damned world.
- everything's just temporary;
9:01 AM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
just because you know what i will say in response to something or because we assimilate into each other's style of talking does NOT mean that you know me. you know that simply because we've talked about the same topic repeatedly and neither one of us is going to change our stand. you only THINK you know me. but your knowledge of me is so minimal and limited in certain areas that are repeatedly discussed about. it's not easy to know someone even if you spend every single day and every single hour with that person. to know about someone is to ask and for that someone to tell. so how can you say you know someone if you don't ask and that someone doesn't tell? have you ever experienced a "me-day"? just lazing in bed with the aircon on and diana krall playing on the stereo set with a good book and good wine with nothing but a short top and undies on? maybe you should then. just take a listen to the almost nothingness. with nothing to worry about and just to relax and reflect about how life has taken a ride on you with the gods looking down and smiling knowingly at you. when you reflect about your life, what do you think of? the happy times or sad times? who do you think of? the people you love or those you hate? where do you think of? the places you know or those you don't?ps. it's truly amazing how she's not even existing in my life yet i can let her affect me when after so long she still manages to swipe you off your feet and snatch you away from me. and i believe that it is even more amazing that after all that has happened, i'm still filled with admiration for her. filling me with a tinge of hate for her would probably do me some justice.my heart's achingthe tears are falling
and you are still not here
you will never be there
or even care
when she's near
your heart belongs to her
whom you cherish so dear
so i'm taking a step away
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I hope my smile
can distract you
I hope my fists
can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you’ll never know
I hope my love
can blind you
I hope my arms
can bind you
So you’ll never have to see
What we’ve grown to be
One may think
we’re alright
But we need pills
to sleep at night
We need lies
to make it through the day
We’re not ok
One may think
we’re doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We’re losing ground
with every passing day
We’re not ok
But that’s one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That’s one thing
I would never say to you
it's the best song to describe how i feel
- everything's just temporary;
4:59 PM
